New Year 2008

Is this a new year
Or just another night
Abundance in this world
But nothing worth saving

Everyone sees the outside
Neglecting the soul within
Attempting to break away
Just another desperation

Sentenced ourselves to prison
Life, we've thrown away the key
18 reasons to admit my wrong
But all my excuses all 18 strong

We toil and give ourselves the albatross
Silence sealed the bridge between us
Goodwills exchanged through methods man-made
Though man-made never let our lives converge

What greater joy there be
Than to share with you life eternal
Treasures we store in His kingdom
Loved ones with us with our Father amaranthine

I'm so sorry I've been so down
Been staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows in the twilight
Begin to believe that who we are is material

In this life
I'm stubborn to the core
In this life
I'm my worse enemy

That's nonsensical
Stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
The flip side of me
For I'm not out of my mind

I'm just a little flabbergasted
How He is experiencing your pains
Listening to your silent cries
Shed His own blood for you to leech

Is this a new year
Or just another desperation
Small acts of random kindness
Or a cacophony of negligence

29th December 2007

I'm the failure
I'm everyone's fool
And I'm losing my cool at the end

I'm the loser
My numbers come up
I've been hung up with thoughts of Revenge
Revenge
Revenge

Oh!

I've been watching you with my terminal view
As you struggle to rise to your end
I laughed hard at the insults we through
As the weight of the world found revenge
Revenge
Revenge

Oh!

Have hatred and Gravity won?

Oh!
Oh!

The world hung upside down
I drew first blood
With my hateful vengeance
I drew first blood
Revenge

I watched heaven dying today
And I'm gonna die here tonight
I'm the villain and I deserve to be dead
I've been hung up for wrecking my life
Revenge

Oh!

So I stopped for a moment
To look at the sun
Dying today
That's when the irony hit me
That this was revenge
That love had descended and stolen our pain
Away.

We consumed heaven's Son
And I drew first blood
And my hate was undone
And I drew first blood
Revenge

Here's a story
How thief had been robed
How murder had stolen my rage
Think of me Lord
I'm a few breaths away
As my lungs finally rip from the cage

But your love is strong and I don't care what goes down
But your love is strong enough to enter through the thundercloud
Fury and thunder clap like stealing the fire from your eyes
All of my world hanging on your love

All of my world resting on your love

29th December 2007

Awakening

Face down with the LA curbside endings
With the ones and zeros.
Downtown was the perfect place to hide.
The first star that I saw last night was a headlight
Of a man-made sky, but man- made never made our dreams collide,
Collide.

Here we are now with the falling sky and the rain,
We're awakening
Here we are now with our desperate youth and the pain,
We're awakening
Maybe it's called ambition, you've been talking in your sleep
About a dream, we're awakening

Last week found me living for nothing but deadlines,
With my dead beat sky but, this town doesn't look the same tonight
These dreams started singing to me out of nowhere
And in all my life I don't know if I've ever felt so alive,
Alive

I want to wake up kicking and screaming
I want to wake up kicking and screaming
I want a heart that I know is beating,
It's beating,
I'm bleeding
I want to wake up kicking and screaming
I want to live like I know what I'm leaving
I want a heart that I know is beating,
It's beating... it's beating...
I'm bleeding

29th December 2007

Unfinished

Entered fellowship with a veil
Am still carrying it clear
How it does me pain
To see their lives so vain

My heart torn asunder from within
A strange man stepped inside
The way he tracked me home
The way he knocked at the door
The way he knew my name
My desires, my iniquities and my genome

Oh how many times have I heard it here
人生就是这样的
All this while I've been searching
But there is nothing that is pure
Thinking too hard to accept
Neither adjective nor noun
Why can't love be a verb

He touched the rain
And suddenly there's waterfalls
Now everyday
There's something else worth fighting for

29th December 2007

Twenty-four

Twenty-four oceans
Twenty-four skies
Twenty-four failures
Twenty-four tries

Twenty-four finds me
In twenty-fourth place
With twenty-four drop outs
At the end of the day

I'm not who I thought I was
Twenty-four hours ago
Still I'm singing 'Spirit
Take me up in arms with you'

There's twenty-four reasons
To admit that I'm wrong
With all my excuses
Still twenty-four strong

Twenty-four voices
With twenty-four hearts
All of my symphonies
In twenty-four parts

But I want to be one today
Centered and true
I'm singing 'Spirit
Take me up in arms with you'
You're raising the dead in me

I wanna see miracles
To see the world change
Wrestled the angel
For more than a name

For more than a feeling
For more than a cause
I'm singing 'Spirit
Take me up in arms with you'
And you're raising the dead in me

Twenty-four oceans
With twenty-hearts
All of my symphonies
With twenty-four parts

Life is not what I thought it was
Twenty-four hours ago
Still I'm singing 'Spirit
Take me up in arms with you'
And you're raising the dead in me

See, I'm not copping out
Not copping out
Not copping out
When you're raising the dead in me

Oh, oh, I am the second man
Oh, oh, I am the second man now
Oh, I am the second man now
And you're raising the dead in me

I'm not copping out
Not copping out